The Intended Masterpiece

Thank you for making me relive the past 6 years of my life,
Thank you for being just another beautiful illusion of nothing.
Thank you for fixing my heart then ravaging it to its unrecognizable state.
The pain is present every waking moment
And how you shot that bullet straight through my heart, oh, how gracefully!
You left me crippled with the endless thoughts
How deceiving appearances can be!
Take your blatant truth for I'm travailing no more!
Gyrating your world was my only hope,
But in dreams you appeared next to nothing.
I thought we would paint masterpieces together
I thought we would be each others work of art.
Only coming to know instances of perfection with you was never.
You couldn't see me for all you held on to was him.
Why start something you can't even end?
Why start something you know would be so blissfully dead?
You never saw me, you never felt my heart beat.
Our forever you made cloven,
No more shall I call you my home; my haven.
I'll trust my family, they never let me down.
I'll trust the Family, they always pick me up.
But I guess we'll never know if trust you'll ever be.

- I thank Charlene for the many inspirations and breaking my heart. Without you I'd never have written this -