Glory Defined

There's always a better way
there's always a bridge that needs crossings
there's always the straight and the narrow
the wide and the shallow
But I know that you're guiding me
and the best is yet to come
You've given me hope for tomorrow
and I know some day

I'll wake up to find
Your glory defined
and I will finally bow at your feet
I will lift up your name in honor and praise
when I cross over Jordan
I know that I'll be running home to you

It's always the simple things
it's always the obvious that crashes over me
It's always in front of me
it helps me to remember
this is what I live for
and I can't wait

there's never a question in your message
never a moment without your presence
there's never a doubt in my mind
that I'll

Building 429 - Glory Defined

I started this blog in the light of one day attaining glory. In my own ways I thought it was at least something I could be proud of, something I could be orotund about. It was through the years since then, have I come to realization that matters like these are not going to last. Nothing will, especially in the mortal world, where all I could do was try and try. Then I left it to Him, I let Him lead my life. At times it is difficult to allow another to steer the course of your lives, and I tried countless times to gain back the control, but I experienced that after every time I'd let go, He makes me stronger. He allows me so much more in my growth, in making the best out of my life. I am the glory searcher no more. The glory all this while was in Him. In Him, the glory I seeked in my exude demeanors have left me in ambivalence. Throughout all that, I was slanderous, disparaging, and at times nefarious. The best part about it was that He'd still come to me even though I left Him completely out of my life. I thank you Lord, from the bottom of my heart, for without you sustaining my being, I'd be but a lost sheep. In your love I dither no more.

Possibilities Endless

I've felt this before. I've tasted it and I've lived it. But still the same feeling of disappointment and shattered hopes dwells in the soul, lingering amidst the already saddened heart. Yesterday and this morning were immeasurably great. First of all AirAsia had 9.99 deals going on to KL + heaps of others, so for this please check out the website @ www.airasia.com.my .

Intentions and plans became a reality, I need to break away from this place I call home for a little while and all seemed possible. Work turned out amazing as the only time I had left to ponder on anything else, was the last 15 minutes of work where I spent organizing my payments and figuring out the best way to finance my plan.

She made yesterday great. She made today a living dream. All this happened when she made my heart felt wishes come true. She was coming back. I was already counting the days till I see her again. Don't get me wrong, and I know I've mentioned some things concerning this whole EMO geek people tend to refer to. But this is a benchmark beyond any other I've set for myself. She's reachable, she's beautiful and more importantly when I was left to rot in the silence of the night, she came and brought along with her, the sound of life. The sound of a heart beating constantly like how she has always done so.

This all ended at 7.30pm tonight, when she texted and said,"Change of plans. I'm not coming home. " There are 1 million things running through my mind and I can't even find the right places to begin this whole misery and joy I've experienced today but I can say this, possibilities are endless.

- viva la Fookchow Familia -

Hurt

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way


Johnny Cash - Hurt

The Intended Masterpiece

Thank you for making me relive the past 6 years of my life,
Thank you for being just another beautiful illusion of nothing.
Thank you for fixing my heart then ravaging it to its unrecognizable state.
The pain is present every waking moment
And how you shot that bullet straight through my heart, oh, how gracefully!
You left me crippled with the endless thoughts
How deceiving appearances can be!
Take your blatant truth for I'm travailing no more!
Gyrating your world was my only hope,
But in dreams you appeared next to nothing.
I thought we would paint masterpieces together
I thought we would be each others work of art.
Only coming to know instances of perfection with you was never.
You couldn't see me for all you held on to was him.
Why start something you can't even end?
Why start something you know would be so blissfully dead?
You never saw me, you never felt my heart beat.
Our forever you made cloven,
No more shall I call you my home; my haven.
I'll trust my family, they never let me down.
I'll trust the Family, they always pick me up.
But I guess we'll never know if trust you'll ever be.

- I thank Charlene for the many inspirations and breaking my heart. Without you I'd never have written this -

Take My Heart Back

It'll be alright
You said
Tomorrow
Don't you cry
Don't you shed a tear
When you wake up
I will still be here
When you wake up
We'll battle all your fears
And now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
Oh,the light that life can give you
Oh,how we get such a free
So now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

- adapted from 'If Only' : Jennifer Love Hewitt - Take My Heart Back -

Collide

When I came here there was more.
Now I've come back to destroy,
And I've got nothing left,
And it's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love,
And it's a place I can not go,
Anymore.

When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
We break.

When the cold comes crashing down,
And the fight lost what it's about.
I could tell that you'd left.
It's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love.
It's a place I can not go,
Anymore.

When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
When we collide.

It's a hard mistake,
When we collide.
It's a mistake,
When we collide we lose ourselves,
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake,

When we collide,
When we collide.
It's a hard mistake,
When we collide,
we break,
We break.

Dishwalla - Collide

my hope for better days

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

- my wish to all, to everyone i know...let's find the better days. it's officially 21 years and counting -

Goo Goo Dolls - Better Days

Your Highness

For the many things I didn't say,
For the many thoughts in my mind they stayed.

You've been an inspirational encounter,
A special soul with no contender.
Tomorrow's only moments away,
And there's so much to learn of your flawless ways.
From the very first time it was serendipity,
Then it turned to something more than curiosity.
For once sitting down with you became perfection,
Your defining moments makes all this the attraction.
If only i knew you at a different time,
If only i knew you at a different place.
I would have went all out and not hold back.
For now this is me not holding back.
A person crossing paths with another is destiny,
Making something out of it takes passion and creativity.
Maybe one day i'll learn to paint a million potraits of you,
Maybe someday it'll be none other than you.
I have nothing only paper and my words,
Praying i'd see you once more; my utopian dream 3 folds.
If only i knew you at a different time,
If only i knew you at a different place.

'You're the Queen.I'm just a jester. What can i do to make it up to you?' - Seth Cohen, the O.C.