**Smile Once More**

The rainy days in my heart clear
There's nothing more to bear
Your eyes gleaming in the falling stardust
Your heart races a little faster why?

I've lived through the pitless misery
I've teared the rivers in countless hearts
And it's you i saw wiping mine
And it's you i felt holding mine

I came to know he lives in you
The despaired songs you sing to him
Your eyes tearing in the winter so cold
Your heart skips a beat when you hear his name

So smile once more and say that you'll care
I'll close my eyes, hold my hands and pray
You'll go on living each day full
You'll go on knowing I loved you

I'll say the good night's
I'll say the sleep tight's
I won't ask no more
I won't try no more
But i will try and be here everyday
And i will in time learn not to cry

So smile once more and say that you'll care
I'll close my eyes, hold my hands and pray
You'll be alright when it all ends
You'll know that i'm still standing here


- In remembrance of a love that could have happened, Su. -

[the Legendary you]

I know you’ve given all that you can give to me
I know there'll come a day I understand
Until then I'll be trying to solve your mystery
And Wonder why I couldn’t make you stay
Smiling through denial , my specialty
I thought that was a good thing for a while
You gave me all your secrets were you testing me?
How could I do anything but smile?

Re–enact your legendary tragedy
And do to me what has been done to you
Is that the only point to all this misery?
Is there any reason I should cry?

Heal – takes time
And you gave me all you had I know in time
I will believe
That I loved you
Did you love me?
Did you love me?

Heal – it takes time
And you gave me all you had I know in time
I will believe
That I loved you
You loved me
You loved me.

- Lou Barlow, from the song "Legendary"

- So -

So how does all begin?
Where does it all end?
Doubt fills my mind and in the moments i search for you
Nothingness fills my heart, broken, despaired needing you

Where's the shining light?
I'll follow her through the night
I've been loving so long it hurts to love again
You'd never imagine the ubiquitous pain*

Somehow my heart tells me
True love is this to be
It never ends, it never dies and it keeps on going
For someday the receiving will be more than giving

I've traverse endlessly
I've longed faithlessly
Someday and oneday is what they all say
Deep inside it is everything and more i pray

Tell me once more when will the nocturnal darkness cease to hang over me
I've forgotten what it feels like have the world lying in my arms
Dreams have gotten me thus far and all i see and feel i cannot be



*My appreciation to Justin for the idea and explaination

The Stair Steps Of A Quiet Day

Grass and trees become green, flowers colorfully bloom.
Seasons come by again. A comfortable spring day,
With out anything to do I think by myself
in the tree lined street.
The days go by without any break.
I am struggling to manage myself here.
Sometimes, let's live a life
Without thinking so deeply.
Morning comes, the sun rises again.
Outside the window the south wind
blows the pain in my heart.
Shall the tears I shed in the past days
be pulled into my unconsciousness.
what is important is the light,
I'd like to stay here a bit more.

We go every day, let's go with laughter
To the direction of the shining light
heading into the open future ahead.
We go every day, let's go with laughter
Like pouring water into a vase
my wishes please be granted.

So The face and the tears
washed by an off season rain
before the rain stops,
Gerra I smile with a clean face.
Like that, goes away one week
With my tired body I take one drink
At the meeting place my friends are all there.
like every day we spend the night chatting nonsense
to continue on with these days
I flap my wings like a bird.
Everyone is doing their best. Don't lose; we don't have a pinch runner.
Going over the people laughing at you,
catch the dream you imagined into your hands.
Wish to the shooting star after the rain.
Now stand up my friend.

We go every day, let's go with laughter
To the direction of the shining light
heading into the open future ahead.
We go every day, let's go with laughter
Like pouring water into a vase
my wishes please be granted.

Without no reason I set off my mobile.
In the far back of the noise
can't you hear the voice of the wind
drifting away now where and why.
Obvious though, I listen on.
Like putting your own future over it.
Wanting something to be said about my self, is the same feeling.
My life goes away bit by bit.
Now I possess multiple copies of my childhood dreams.
I make a stupid face
as I brush my teeth in front of the mirror in the morning.
Going outside. I live a day like this.
I'll stop waiting for the night.
Resting isn't bad, charge up your energy.
quietly the city ticks away time.
Connecting our dreams, we make an arch.

The stair steps of a quiet day
The stair steps of a quiet day
The stair steps of a quiet day
The stair steps of a quiet day
The stair steps of a quiet day
The stair steps of a quiet day

Under the sky without the breeze,
I reach out to catch tomorrow.

The stair steps of a quiet day
The stair steps of a quiet day